One of the things that I have realized during this journey over the past 12 months, is the power of affirmations and surrender. As I was re-reading my blog post from last year (My 43rd Birthday) I realized that I was crafting my future. The power of words and your ability to use them to craft your life is magical. As such, it is imperative to carefully choose the words that you use to describe yourself and your life. You are creating your existence day by day. This excerpt from last year's post perfectly illustrates my point:
- I am using this time as an opportunity to gather my resources and actually focus on my financial house. I have some obligations to deal with ...but I am trying to steer my life into one that requires minimal monthly obligations. Our government being what it is, I have no expectation of a monthly pension, so I need to make sure that I can care for myself. I keep thinking I should buy a small plot of land, but trying to figure out just where I want to live out my golden years is a difficult decision. I want a place that I can have sunshine, land that is good for gardening, taxes that are reasonable, and where I can live essentially off-grid. I want a place that I have space to myself, but is not so remote that I do not have a city within a 15-20 min drive. I want community without intrusiveness. Lastly, I want people that I can connect with. As a liberal who has lived in mostly red states, I have no problem getting along, but I don't want to fear for my safety. I also want to travel.
This excerpt also illustrates my next point, which is one of surrender. Do not misunderstand me. Surrender is anathema to all that I believe. When I say surrender, it is more of a general faith that there is a divine intelligence at wok in the Universe, carefully crafting the existence you desire. The point of surrender is that we all try to control the picture that we want, instead of just accepting that you will get what you seek, but it may not be in the form you anticipated. Often, it is far superior to anything you could have imagined.
At this stage, I have discovered that I merely have to express my desires, and they come to me. It is so incredibly simple, it is almost insulting. Patience and remaining open to possibilities is really all that is required.
With that said, my desires for this next year are simple. I shall continue on my path of simplification in my obligations. I shall continue on my journey to physical and mental health. Finally, I shall thank God every day for granting me the joy of a great family, good friends, and the most incredible man I have ever met. I am a blessed woman.